You werent fond of reading but you read all the words I've type to you.
Words I meant to share with you.
Just like how you meant the world to me.

I wished you were lazy to read the message I typed when I vent out my ungratefulness.
I have never said such things to anyone before.
But it wasnt something anyone would want to ever received.

I really thought I was over it but damn.. It just felt like yesterday when we went for movies together.
All the memories were so vivid and clear in my head.

I kept playing it cool and act really happy everyday but going home lying in bed in this silents I finally got to be myself again.
I kept crying and asking God to give me strength.

You told me he was immature that he was too young to understand love.
You told me he was heartless for saying the things to me.
I thought you werent like the rest.
But you gave up on me as well.

You took part of me and left,
all I got from you was a sticky note to pass me back my book.
It was nothing but it meant so much right now.
She told me we had the same handwriting it scared me awhile when I realize how similar it was.

I put it on my room table just so I could see it in the morning,
something that seems more alive than anything.
I kept the gift you gave even though it couldnt be used anymore.

I think Ive gotten overboard falling for you.

You prove to me you werent heartless and I believed you.
But now you just left me here proving everything wrong.

I really want us back like how it was, changing things to be better.
Giving space and time.
But why cant you leave me assured and not awkward.

I dont know why this pain wont be gone, I rather it be numb forever.

I have reached a point, I dont plan to move on or be close with anyone anymore.

I clearly wouldnt meet anyone like you in the future,
its funny how you have hurt me so much but I still want you so badly.
Am I crazy?
Ive seen your good and bad but it has never changed how I felt.
But you saw the ugly side of me and left immedielty.

I never thought I would really meet a real life version of you.
I never thought it was possible to know someone like you.
Everything ended so soon.
It felt like a long time but there goes my three months of happiness.

I play the songs you gave me everyday
&
I miss you so much.

01.02.16