I don't know why but I just feel attach to you no matter what. I really miss you. It sounds kinda sick but true. I never like you in that way. But I always have this protective feeling over you. But I know everything is in the past now. Yet I keep wishing that I can get everything back.

I don't know why but the things you do for me seems to always come into my head. All the things we chat. All the stupid silly conversation. Come to think about it, it's really funny that I actually went crazy with you and be stupid. Ha. But I know I can't get it back anymore. Now all it's left is a beautiful yet painful memories.

Will I get over it? I have no idea. I'm scared. I don't know what you think of me right now. Sometimes I wish you would tell me but I guess it's impossible? Whenever my stomach feels unwell, it always reminds me about you, about what you did for me. I don't think anyone would do that for me now. Right now I just gotta wait till that weird unwell feeling to fade. I delete all the message not only yours but everyones'. Because I have to sell my phone. But even though it's gone, I still remember it clearly in my head.

I don't know why I treat you so different from others. At the start I did that because I was afraid to hurt you, but as time pass I got used to you and treated you the way I feel like but not because of any other things. Sometimes I think to myself what the heck am I doing? But I never stop what I was doing, till I start to realize I shouldn't. I'm just too selfish. That's why I told you everything. I know for sure I did hurt you though you say it's okay and put a smiley. Whenever I see that smiley I tend to think of you, I guess because you're the one who always puts that type.

After everything I said, you gave me a message that really made me regret what I did. But I know what I did was right. At that moment it was like a cut in my heart but right now all it's left is a scar. But yet it's like you still have a place in my heart. Whenever I know about your news and stuff, I tend to feel jealous and protective, but I can't do anything. Because it's your choice and at the start it was my choice to drew a line. So I guess right now I won't be able to get back all the things we had but what's the point getting it back when it would be a cycle again? So I guess everything will have it's ending. And there is no happy ending bacause This is reality.