it consume your thoughts.
it consume your heart.

its delusional.
its like a poison that haunts you.
deceive you,
like a beautiful rose covered with thorns.

You wouldnt know until it eats you.
By time you realize its already too late.

It touch you physically,
kills you emotionally.
That electrifying feeling that goes down your spine.
That makes you goes into tears.

Holding back wondering whats going on.

Its the risk you want to take,
its killing you softly but you dont want to let go.
In fact it's like a drug that makes you want more.

Grabbing it not wanting to let it go,
because it's something that makes you feel whole.

It's one of those things you cant calculate,
you wouldnt understand,
no one can phantom that feeling in you.

It's everything you wish you never come across,
you wish you didnt had it.

But it consumed you,
it owned you without a permission.
Placing a part in your heart,
the pain makes you know you're alive.
the joy makes you realize you could be happy.
the trouble makes you feel the adrenaline.
the chaos makes you conscious that you want to win this fight.

They say you will never understand until you got it.

Is this a blessing or a curse?
Is this just a road im passing by?
or this could be something new.

The fear of stepping into something new.
The fear of not knowing what could happen.

It makes you scared,
it makes you doubt everything.

This danger you're willing to cross doesnt give you the guarantee.
Even if it does it doesnt seems convincing.

Trust.
Comes to the picture.
Trust.
how much can you trust?
Trust.
How true could it be?
Trust.
The step of faith yet trouble.

Pain.
it doesnt go numb.
Pain.
how much your willing take.

You consume it all,
you thought so,
but the truth is it consumed you.

And you took the bait and feel like it doesnt matter if this go wrong.
because it's everything you want though,
you wish never had it in the first place.