Could it be possible to have a connection with someone you never talked before but just know their existence?
The world is a mysterious place filled with various type of people.
We all have heart beats but there are people whose heart beats the same.
Is there a possibility for people to feel another party even when they never met before?
If it's possible I wonder what would happen when those two look at each other in the eye, hold each other hands & share a kiss.
would it be magical?
An electrifying feeling.
I never gave my first kiss away yet but imagine maybe :
flowers would blossom,
leafs will grow greener,
the children smile becomes boarder,
seniors will forget their aches,
business man will throw their files in the air.
At that moment the world will turn slowly,
everything becomes blurry,
life would be so beautiful.
God created few soul mates for us in our life but it's our choice to choose our sole mates,
Imagine if there was two people who choose each other and spend their live together till death to them part.
Oh so lovely,
so wonderful,
so sweet.
Life can be wonderful.
It's just how you choose the right perspective of it.
It's our choice to choose.
But sometimes we blame God on our mistake.
I do think we should think it over,
He has warn us while we ignore and followed our feelings.
It's tragic,
but we humans aren't perfect and will never be on this earth.
But it takes those mistake for us to grow and to understand that fact.
Life is about growing and learning.
活到老学到老
the chinese idioms which tell us everyday we get older and everyday we learn something.
In this hopelessness,
I laugh at my enjoyable yet useless days,
where I sleep late every night thinking, hoping and imagine things that i pray and know will yet to come.
& be awaken by my sweet lovely mother's touch and voice.
Sometimes it's loud and firm that's my paps.
I cant stand him yet there's this adorable thing about him maybe he's just getting old.
But they are so sweet.
They are the reason I always lose my doubts about love not being exist.
Everyday I eat my first meal and relax till the next meal comes,
sit in front of my comp and play the guitar till my finger hurts.
Until I lose song titles I can think of,
lazing around with my sister talking about our dreams and plans that are coming soon,
waiting for a job reply,
hesitating to get a driving license,
editing my last year Melbourne trip photos,
always thinking of exercising but never doing it.
I often laugh at my poor results i have in high school,
laughing about me dropping out and waiting for my another result to apply college.
Thinking of my California dream,
a beautiful arty studio near a nice beach,
where i can surf,
walk around getting inspiration,
traveling to look for my sister,
bringing my macbook to do my clients wishes,
i probably need a dog to fill my loneliness,
bury myself with the shoes i will get and cry myself to sleep.
Or would I meet my soul mateS or just my SOLE mate?
that.
I cant be sure.
All im trying to say no matter how you think your life is,
i hope you see the positive side of it,
when you're tired imagine of the things that makes you smile,
when you cant sleep listen to songs that can calm you & tell yourself ahh rest & sleep I did well today tomorrow I will do better, good night self.
think of what i just said,
I'm sure you can do alright or better.
Put on that smile,
and I - this stranger will always
be proud of you.
peace out.
When I want something I pray for it until I get it.
I always tell myself have faith like child.
Pure heart.
Innocent believe.
Not corrupted by reality.
But,
Always have a confident like a rebel teen who DGAF about what people comment about your dream, your goals.
Pray hard, achieve, do what you need to do in order to have it.
People say Im so bless.
But why am I still living with a trouble heart?
So tired of proving.
With that I just do what I need to do.
Sometimes I do think I did great.
I would go, Hey look at me I'm pretty awesome.
But there are people in your life that mean so much too you that whatever they say is important to you.
It's hard to go yeah whatever shut up.
It's that bond, blood related that hold you back to learn to respect, love and concern.
What they say would make you take note to.
But,
Taking that note is like always taking a knife not stabbing but cutting my heart slowly.
Hurt so much that you're lost for words.
I reach a point of accepting that this is what I'm gonna get all the time.
Though I wonder & ask myself wont there be a day when they would praise you sincerely.
There's always a taste of sarcastic into it.
That make me hard to believe a good sentence.
It's not that I'm always doubtful with everything,
when I cant feel it,
it's definitely not true.
I always think it's time to express and say whats on my mind to let them know hey im grown up my thinking & interest change along with my face, height and weight.
But it's like hard for them to accept than to support.
Because of that I learn to do things on my own,
achieve on my own,
but yeah I cant live on my own yet,
I guess the fear they have was once i leave
I wouldnt miss, I wouldnt come back.
Grabbing my hands hard giving me what I want to hold me down.
Why,
why you never ever say words of encouragement or show appreciation?
I'm sorry I didnt give enough love or nicer stuff to say.
I just think it's always better to say the truth I don't feel it so dont say it.
It's like lying getting your way for love.
Love.
One word that place everyone heart to either beat faster, sink, squeeze or soothe.
It's a magic word.
But for me it make my mind go blank & quiet.
It's not that I'm cold, its just...
What I am is what the environment made me.
Since young I was a kid with less words but lots in mind.
I'm a observer analyzer logical thinker who puts emotion aside because emotion is like a alcohol that makes you loose your senses.
Avoiding will make you know
whats true & false,
what's real & what's fake.
I guess it's time I not only pray for things I wanna achieve but also pray for joy in my heart.
I guess as long God accepts me that's more than enough for me.
