Human


In the end we're just human 
We cant control everything
God controls everything
We're just puppets thats trying to work hard for our life
We strive, we cry, we work
But we all still die
It is worth it?
Being fooled & control by what people mould life into
I work i strive 
It wast right, its wasnt common
Laughing at myself, rach working for her future. What a joke.
I did it
I feel good, i feel great
But when god change the card
The joke was on me,
I was the joke of the century 
Im back to phase one 
Now im questioning 
Whats this, whats right, whats the truth
Is it going to pay off?
I was an accident in reality 
but God had his reason to create me.

Everyday wishing if only new year eves didnt happen 
like i said we're just humans. 
We cant control everything
I dont want to do anything
'Just do ur best.' 
Yeah i sure fcking did
Now im just chocking at my stupidity
Worth it? What is really worth it
Some people just have it
I dont, and that make us strive harder than others
But what if i dont want to,
I dont care about the As or fcking certificate
I dont want to get a degree
I just want to find me, find out my purpose in life
Whats my role in this selfish fck up world 
Reality of jealousy and greed
We all strive so hard just to have more papers 
To keep ourselves safe and never satisfied.
Who started this rules?
We, human are just such a joke
We are all a joke.

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WRWW

Everything just came in place.
Everything seems so close.
Everything should have been.

But it couldnt,
that obstacle didnt stop you.
But it did for me.

I could have,
I should have.

But it wasn't right.
I didnt want to make it happen this way.

I cant seem to go with that.
Stealing someone's happiness for my own just doesn't seem right.
Will that even become a real bliss?
I doubt so.

I didnt want to be a stealer,
I didnt want to be a flirt,
I didnt want to be a loser.

But,
I felt my happiness is being stolen when i'm being apart,
I felt my wisdom is killing me from what I need,
I felt my possession losing away from me.

Whats right and whats wrong when a little bit wrong can get a little right.

Everything was suppose to be right yet I see so many mistake filling up my mind.

I knew where this was going but I didnt want to stop.
I knew where this would lead but I wanted more.

Staying away will never a\happen.
Getting hurt isn't an option.

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Never happens

I tried not to fall.
I told myself this is the last call.

I know I can't.
Never understand how I could be so dent.

I fell hard,
Into a pond full of fishes that had companion.
I was the only one left.
Some how I couldnt get out of this water but I'm emotionally burnt.

I'm sorry to mention that word to hold you back,
to push you away.
I laugh and acted happy that I did it, 
and it was meant to be.

I fell hard,
Hard on concrete floor while my heart gets tore.
I was the only one left.
Some how I choose not to stop breathing but I'm emotionally suffocating. 

I'm sorry to make you mention that word,
to push me away.
I took it lightly and acted glee.
and it was meant to be.

Because the only thing weren't meant to be was, us.
That word, wasnt a traverse. 
Time, wasn't on your hands but it was on mine.
It all meant to be this way,
I want it to be this way,
But I cant seem to feel gay.

I fell hard,
Hard on this situation while you caught me on guard.
I was the only one left.
Some how I choose not to let it occurred but I'm emotionally hurt. 

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