Gayistic!


Nice to hear that.
It's nothing but it's something to me.
Thanks.
It felt good.
Ha.
Weird?
Nah I don't think so.
Naturally we will feel this way.

I'm such a genius.
Well, sort of.
Can't believe I did that.
I did that because it involves, you.
And I wanna know about it.

Well, some people are just insecure and think that they're so "awesome" and great with what they did. Thinking that whatever they did was so brave. I think that he's- Egoistic+gayness. It's a funny combinations. LOL Let's call it Gayistic. Okay I'm being mean, random and stupid.
Wow, It's been awhile since I type this stlye. Haha.. I think I'm affected by the music I'm listening too right now-Chemical Brothers-The Devil Is In The Details. Sorry about that. I'm just overjoyed.
:)

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F.O

It happen too many times.

Always thought that this time it would be different.
But i was wrong.
I was always wrong.
From the first time.

To blind to trust you.
To blinded by everything.

Shouldn't even went there.
Shouldn't bring the walls down.
Shouldn't even be doing all this.

I don't know how many of them felt this same way.
Or maybe I'm just the only one feeling this way.

You should never came by.
I should never let you in.

But everything just went by so fast.
I remembered how I feel.
I realize it didn't change,
I'm just used to how it feels.

Seeing through the fog made me realize how I still feel.
It's good to know.

I guess sometimes we need to get hurt to realize it.




Don't come back.
But if you do.
I won't let you in this time.

6:28 AM 0 PERMALINK

fdfhhggrea

I won't let them take me there.


I'm so effing worried right now.

It's so wrong.

What the eff am I even doing?

Rachel, you need to grow up.

You're officially ruining your life.

This is just the first step.

Stop it,

don't kill yourself.

If you care about it then do something about it.

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who will you be

Kept going around in circles.

When will you pull me out of the merry go round?
I need a direction.
Bring me out and tell me that I'll be safe.
Tell me you'll be the one that will stop this from happening.
And make me believe you.

I want to believe it.
I want to have a hope in it.
I want to know that this is real and not a fairy tale.

When will you be in my life?
And who will you be?

That stranger I do not know.
That stranger that will change everything that's happening.
That stranger that will bring me down and bring me back.
That stranger that will make me hate you and love you.

Only time will tell.

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when will you realize?

Afraid to get closer again knowing one day you'll be gone again,

it happen too frequent that I fear it.

Telling myself it's over but I'm still scared.
Still holding that hope even though it would never happen.
Why are you so blind to even notice how I feel.
Or your faith is too small that you think it's impossible.
Yeah, I thought so too,
but it happen.

I'm trying to change it,
when my mind is made up,
I was ready to leave you came back.
You made me stayed and you were gone again.
I don't know what's really going on in that head of yours.

It made my heart warm when you were there close to me,
when you actually bothered to talk to me,
the things you did for me,
the way you cared for me.

But it hurts to see how you are out there,
thinking to myself what was I thinking.
But I still hold on.
Sometime it hurts so bad it's like someone squeezing your heart out.

But you didn't know.
Alex, you didn't know it's you.

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