I'm tired.

I'm tired of being lock up.
I'm tired of being locked up in that same room for hours.
I'm tired of trying to be so nice to people.
I'm tired of holding back my anger.
I'm tired of forgiving people so easily.
I'm tired of  trying to be good.
I'm tired of being so obedient.
I'm tried of staring at the same old teachers.
I'm tired of doing the same old routine.
I'm tired of feeling like a prisoner.
I'm tired of being so limited by so many things.
I'm tired of being seen as a problem child.
I'm tired of getting that weird looks from people.
I'm tired of people thinking I'm crazy all the time.
I'm tired of trying to be happy.
I'm tired of hiding my weak side.
I'm tired of holding back all my tears.
I'm tired of hiding all my fears.
I'm tired of being so merciless.
I'm tired of being so hard.
I'm tired of being last.
I'm tired of getting meaningless marks.

I'm tired of your faces.
I'm tired of listening to your voice.
I'm tired of sensing your despair.
I'm tired of how proud you are over her.
I'm tired of everything you do.
I'm tired of you looking me down.
I'm tired of you taking your words back.

I'm tired of concealing how I feel inside.
I'm tired of my fake smile.


But that's just how I am.
and it's killing me. 

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