For now.

Gosh. 
I couldn't get that picture out of my head.
This is going to distract me for a few days.
I'm determine to do it now.
I got a feeling it's you.
Might not be,
but still I got a feeling it is.

I like it. 
Everything about it.
Can't believe I'm such a simpleton when it comes to this.
I really am infatuated by this. 

Wait,
 I don't even know you.

Okay. 
I can sleep as a happy person now.
I love today. 
It's great.

Ups and downs.
But :) 

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You'll never know me.

I'm just like the rest of them.
People think I'm crazy but you have no idea how you could actually make my day,
You did the same to the others,
We're just crazy people with crazy imaginations.
But that's what keep us alive.
You inspired me so much.
You make me feel like "Yeah, it's possible."
You'll never see this, 
But it's okay. 

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Almost complete


Poh Lin and Jie Lin did this for me, I think it's really adorable! Plus it taste good =)

Anyway, today, 15 October, I finally watched three musketeers 3D and I must say the wait and cash was worth it! I feel like my life is almost complete. This movie, everything was great, I'm sure they took a lot of work to get everything done. It's really cool. The effect and everything. 
Oh by the way I watched real steel last night, that movie was nice too. Enjoyable, pretty touched too. The thought of all the animation and editing really makes me salute them.


So vomit just now, my dinner is gone! Flush down the drain. Rolls. Still not feeling too good so going head to bed soon! 

Peace out. 



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free style

Okay free style now. 
Kinda stress out with the whole exam thing!
It's like another two weeks.
I feel like I'm prepared, but I'm not even close to that!
It's crazy. 
Feel extremely anxious about everything...

Going to watch 3M on Saturday though!
So elated about it,
though i feel guilty for not watching it on the first day it was out! 
No idea why @@ 
But really excited about it..  
Invited my friends along too well, support!
Watched the trailer and boy does it look good! 
Plus! good cast :)
Watching it in 3D.
OMG I feel hype about it!

Things are going well now.
realize I don't really need to bother about those stuff things,
it will work out well,
decided not to push it.
Yeah..

Lately I've been trying to compose songs,
which it's like impossible.
But I have that feeling though ==
I like the tune but it wouldn't fit the guitar, 
I like the rhythm of the guitar but I can't get the right tune. 
Guess I have to do it separately.
Sad.


anyway feeling very exhausted!
had home science today!

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I'm tired.

I'm tired of being lock up.
I'm tired of being locked up in that same room for hours.
I'm tired of trying to be so nice to people.
I'm tired of holding back my anger.
I'm tired of forgiving people so easily.
I'm tired of  trying to be good.
I'm tired of being so obedient.
I'm tried of staring at the same old teachers.
I'm tired of doing the same old routine.
I'm tired of feeling like a prisoner.
I'm tired of being so limited by so many things.
I'm tired of being seen as a problem child.
I'm tired of getting that weird looks from people.
I'm tired of people thinking I'm crazy all the time.
I'm tired of trying to be happy.
I'm tired of hiding my weak side.
I'm tired of holding back all my tears.
I'm tired of hiding all my fears.
I'm tired of being so merciless.
I'm tired of being so hard.
I'm tired of being last.
I'm tired of getting meaningless marks.

I'm tired of your faces.
I'm tired of listening to your voice.
I'm tired of sensing your despair.
I'm tired of how proud you are over her.
I'm tired of everything you do.
I'm tired of you looking me down.
I'm tired of you taking your words back.

I'm tired of concealing how I feel inside.
I'm tired of my fake smile.


But that's just how I am.
and it's killing me. 

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He loves us.

I kept finding reason.
I kept searching what's missing.
I kept thinking why is my life so dull.
I kept wondering what's happening to me.
I kept thinking why do I feel so empty inside.
I kept finding answers.

In the end it was always there,
I just never pay attention to it.
That small little hint He gave.
The way I just avoided it so easily.

Tonight, I just decided to listen to it.

I never felt better.
It was great to feel that peace again.
That emptiness filled with love.
Love that can't never be replace.
A love which not even words can describe.

I was down.
I am happy now.

We all need Him in the end.
All the things we have now are just temporarily.

Too buried by other things.
Felt that guilt in my heart.
Like a slap across my face. 

We all need him.
We all need Jesus.

You can laugh and rise your eyebrows,
But if you just take that step to call out His name.
Focus on Him.
Don't have any doubts but believe in Him.
You will feel the difference.

He's always there,
He loves us.
He loves you.

He's real,
Always.

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Mean

I didn't like her.
Yes, i was childish.

I didn't like her because of personal reason,
and because of that I started to look at the negative side of her.
But I think of what I thought it seems all wrong. 

When I see her I gave her a smile,
which made me feel like a bitch.

Sometimes I feel like grabbing her hair and whack her face on the wall.
and there was me being all mean again.
I don't want to be that type of girls.
I didn't want to be a bitch who thinks and acts like one.

But I didn't want to be a fake smiling at her.
But if I don't smile it isn't nice too.

So I thought maybe I should just be nice to her and not hate her, everyone has their weakness and I shouldn't hate her at the start. I'm just being plain mean. Change. First time hating people, feels weird. 

I guess we'll experience all types of things in life. 
after all I'm only sixteen!

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