It was something I never expected.
But yes, I did hope.

But It was just at the back of my mind.
I tried to put that thought aside.

And yes, it happened.

The feeling of it was great.
But yet it hurts because I have to cherish every moment.
It hurts to know you can't do what you want anymore.
It hurts to know that this time you have to stop following your feelings.

I didn't dare to look nor think about it.
But it was hard not too.
It was hard to focus on whatever that was happening.

Trying to do every small little things.
Just holding a hope.
And yes it came again.
But it didn't lasted.

It's also good to know about the things that you were trying to figure out for days.
It made me smile and sigh at the same time.
Both feelings mixed up.
Yet you can't even use a word to describe it.

Making a decision you think you're so brave, so thoughtful.
But part of you kept trying to do something stupid.
Something to avoid feeling down.
But deep down you know that you will have to face the problems again.
So why not now than later?
Sigh.

Thank you. It felt great.