"It used to be a happy, we could laugh and wait for the reply,tell the truth or maybe it was a lie maybe. I wish it didn't happen but it already did. And i can't do anything bout it."
Ruins
It was suppose to be something good. But it became worst and worst. She was pretty excited to see her friend so she can tell her bout it. But in the class.. She heard someone said something which make her go again! It happen again the second time it was all my fault, she thought to herself why? She didn't have any mood at all, she couldn't talk...
Blank
In the class she sat there silently, dreaming, thinking, and thinking. Eavesdropping everyone conversation not looking just listening. Then she thought wow i can't wait what should i say? Hmm... Not long her friend called her to sit beside her and they started chatting then suddenly her friend asked her did you know..(sensored) She was thinking what the?! What did she just say?? no way!! there must be a mistake? a big one! no..no..no..! Her mind was blank like someone just pluck her power plug but she know she must stay cool like nothings wrong.. So she was like wow. Really? Then thinking to herself"Man I'm fake.. But i have no idea what to do."
Game?
When she went back to her sit she looked outside not sure what was she doing all she is wanted to do is to burst into tears but she thinks it's not worth it. So she hold it. and the teacher came in the class they greeted her and sat down when teacher was teaching, she keep telling herself to focus. But it just keep popping out of her mind. She took her pencil up and start scibling her text book didn't have that time to think whether the person sitting beside her thinks she's crazy. She felt so down, she never had this feeling before, but now it happen, is this for real or is this all a joke, a game,a set up? Which? Lost. At that moment she just wanna hug someone so tight and cry out, but then for something like this no. never.
Asleep
Just when she thought this is the last day of school she could have fun and enjoy but it's ruin. Badly. Her friend told her just cry out but she couldn't she was still stunt not awake yet, she couldn't react at that moment, she just kept silent.
Flow
In the bus she was alone everything appeared in her mind, everything. As it appeared she hold on her tears, when she put her head down it flowed like a opened tap, trying to catch her breath, and she tell herself no! You can't to this! So she close her eyes and cool down and she was fine again.
Deeper
When she reach home she smiled to her sis, and her sis went upstairs. She walk slowly and catch her breath and it flow again, she sat on the floor, she didn't care about anything but to let it all out. She went upstairs and go to the room and pick up the guitar and started playing she played hosanna by hill song she suddenly forgotten the cords she was stunt there and cried again as her tears drop to the guitar and to her paper. She went to her sister as her sister turned to her head to see her she ask her you're ok?! All she did was smile and cried.
Dead
She's still not stable still quiet. She used to just see the top of the screen of that window but now she always scroll down and stare and wait. She made a mistake everything was all a mistake misunderstanding. Just when she thought "wow. But now it's gone, still shock thinking what happen just now? Was i dreaming?" Lied. Cheated. Regret...