It's like I don't know me,

feelings are mix up.

Feeling so glad about everything that I feel like exploding.

No matter how hyper I got it wasn't enough to express how happy I am,

yet I kept holding back,

what is this?

Fear?

Gosh, 

fear comes in the story again.

Yeah,

probably worry about how things would turn out after that.

I really wish I knew what you were thinking.

It's really crazy to not know.

You act like there's nothing wrong.

Or there's nothing wrong at all but I'm just worry sick for no reason at all?

Yet I feel extremely stubborn to feel that there's something more than that.

I just wish I knew. 

Please talk to me and tell me.

I'm so scared because I'm running out of time.

I'm so worry that I will never get to see you anymore.

I'm so fearful about how would it be waking up in the morning knowing there's no more you in my life.

I don't have a choice do I?

Do you know that I'm leaving? yeah I'm sure you don't.

You don't even know me,

I can say the same about you.

What are we?

I mean seriously,

i fucking screw things up by doing all those stuff.

I never expect that I would have what I have now.

I never knew this day would come.

I never knew I would come this close.

I never know that this day would come along.

I never knew all of this.

I never knew I would fall for you.

All I know was that I want to know you even from the start when I saw you.

It wasn't love at first sight it was just a plain thought. 

But who knew when I took more than one step I fell in.

What a idiot I am to fall for you, 

you weirdo.

But in the end, 

I don't know whether I could say that you took a step too,

but i wouldn't had gone this far without you.

This whole year,

had been a long journey.

I know it's only nine to ten months that has gone by,

and I hope in the next 2 months something great would happen.