Not use to this kind of life.

End up getting a fever.

Pretty much sucks but I'm alright now.

Too many late nights, not enough sleep.

Feel like my skin is rotting.

I look really suckie.

Only time I feel bored and not doing anything is when I'm in class, 

feel like I'm wasting so much time. 

Gotta start bringing my science book again..

Gah.. tuitionsss. Gotta go sign up too.

I don't have much time. 

Time is really passing me by gotta catch 'em.

Gotta catch'em all! Pokemon.

That was random.

Ahh miss Pokemon.

Hmmmm.....

Slept for 15 hours. Ha..

Chinese test tomorrow gotta prepare soon.

***

You're all I look forward now.

But sometimes I feel like maybe it's better if I don't know you,

I'm afraid you'll end up spoiling my expectation of who you are.

Maybe I just have the fear of losing what I have now,

which is something to look forward too.

Maybe I just fear the truth.

Maybe I'm just afraid of what I would end up facing those stuff again.

Maybe we should just stay as how we are now,

as strangers.

But I want more than what I have now. 

Hate being so lost.

But it's not like you even know I exist.

And, 

You'll never care. 

You'll never want to know.

You'll never want to see. 

You'll never look forward.

You'll never find.

You'll never think.

You'll never ask.

You'll never tell.

You'll never feel.

Like the way I do.