Being told that whatever I'm doing is meaningless.
It's like a slap across my face again.
I don't know how to feel at that moment.
Anger, disappointment and hurt poured over me,
but I just gave a smile to change everything.
That look on your face left me hopeless.
Why do you always have to do this?
Or are you my wake up call whenever it comes to this?
Or are you just that person that likes to spoil my bubble of hopes.
I just want your support.
Yes maybe I've become someone else.
Maybe you don't like it,
but for sure I know I hate what I've become.
I don't like it but I can't help to feel this way.
I hate those people who act like this and here I am becoming one of them.
But what can I do?
Sit here and wait for a miracle?
I have to do something about it too right?
Or I won't get anything from it.
Thinking, dreaming, hoping isn't enough.
Action needs to be done.
Please understand.
I apologize if I'm too much.
I apologize for becoming like this.
But try putting yourself in my shoes.
What if it was your position?
Won't you feel that exact same way too?
Yes, the feeling may not be mutual
but hey,
I'm asking you about your side, your feeling.
Not the other party.
I don't know maybe it was nothing to you but it was a big deal for me.
I feel extremely stupid with everything that has been happening but I couldn't help it, this is just the way I feel.
Sometimes I get so sick of all this.
I wish I was back to how I use to be.
Feeling lost, hopeless and empty.
It's actually better than now.
But you,
you had to appear and look me in the eye.
And things went wrong ever since.
Return part of my heart back, please.
It would solve everything that is happening around me.
Just return it to me.
