it's so near,

I can even smell it,

It's calling out to me,

Telling me to get ready for it.

My mine is ready but my heart is not,

I'm not ready to face it,

Kept having what if in my mind,

Worry to have the same expectation and outcome.

That brings me down constantly,

Trying to psycho my mind,

Trying to be absolutely positive,

But in the end I doubt myself.

Jesus is with me,

I have to keep remembering that,

HE'll show me the way,

and lead me out of these maze,

and in the end I'll be out from it.

And it's all because of HIM.

Without Him I'm nothing,

Jesus is the way the truth and the life,

That I believe.

I can't wait to use that phrase to all the people who looked down at me.

I won't let those people who believed in me feel disappointed and have the thought of me not changing.

I'll get my trust back.